I am no rebellious girl. I have no evil intentions.


I forgot since when that I started to feel that I dread being at home.


Mum & Dad haven't been too sensitive towards the feelings of us, or maybe just me. Since I left my previous job and started on my new job, this transit period, mum's reactions and responses had been fairly insensitive. She didn't know how I felt leaving tcc coz in the 1st place, she has never quite like the idea of me staying on despite the low pay. She didn't know the amount of stress I am fighting against within myself since my new job. Meeting up with friends, going to library to read my book alone quietly, recollecting fond memories were what I do after work to de-stress myself, to make myself feel better, to feel myself, my being around. I am managing with the stress level and I don't need additional stress from anyone.


There are many thoughts running in my mind now but I can't put them into words. How do I describe the kinda feeling when Dad's tone towards me wasn't too polite just a moment ago? How should I describe the feeling when sis gave sarcastic remarks? I don't feel like talking to anyone about anything, at least not now. I do feel misunderstood by my family but I have given up on trying to explain, to argue or to be heard. I still love them.


Everyone can misunderstand me & my thoughts but please don't take away my breathing space. I really need them.


Leave me alone.

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